Verse 8: 8 And it came to pass that I was three days and three nights in the most bitter pain and anguish of soul; and never, until I did cry out unto the Lord Jesus Christ for mercy, did I receive a remission of my sins. But behold, I did cry unto him and I did find peace to my soul.
I have noticed in my scripture study that they often use the term "cry unto the Lord" or in this case, Alma says him referring to the Lord. They rarely use the term pray(ed).
This is really sticking out to me. And it makes me look back at the times I did cry while I prayed. I was desperate for help, I was willing to pray on my knees when usually I pray laying down in bed, I was humble and just needed the Lord so so so much....And the crazy thing is that after I do this, He responds much faster than my other prayers.
Then I think, well maybe I should always cry about EVERYTHING. But that is kind of fake humility, and trying to get what I want. I don't feel like I need the things, I feel like I want the thing. I want to always feel humble and be genuine in my humbleness, but it can be hard for sure.
This summer I cried, okay I bawled on my knees and begged the Lord for this past summer to be our last summer with my husband working for Vivint. And this time we have ended a summer and instead of my usual "pick wherever you want to live" scenario, the Lord has told me to wait. We are living with my parents with 3000$ negative dollars and my husband has actually been applying for jobs...hallelujah!!!
After praying so so very hard for this for so long, the Lord didn't soften my husband's heart until after my crying (bawling) prayer. It has been frustrating to say the least watching my husband come home with promises of applying for jobs and then sits around being grumpy because we don't have very much money.
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